American singer, songwriter and actress, Selena Marie Gomez has revealed more about her struggles with bipolar disorder.
According to the 30-year-old, had suicidal thoughts and been to four different treatment centers.
In a Rolling Stone interview, Gomez said:
“I think when I started hitting my early twenties is when it started to get really dark, when I started to feel like I was not in control of what I was feeling, whether that was really great or really bad.”
She explained that at times she would have symptoms of mania, like feeling the need to buy everyone in her life a car so she could share her “gift“, but then she’d fall into a deep state of depression and not be able to get out of bed.
She also disclosed that in her darkest moments, she always think the world would be better without her, “I thought the world would be better if I wasn’t there.”
After a 2018 episode, she says she ended up on a ton of meds, which helped her psychosis, but made her feel unlike herself.