In the May issue of Essence, the single father is opening up about life after his ex-girlfriend’s death and the impact it’s had on the way he going about his daily life. Starting with the day she died, Puffy details the way his world has been “turned upside down.”
“Three days before she passed, she wasn’t feeling well. She had the flu, and she sent the kids over to my house so they wouldn’t get sick. One night I was checking on her, and she was like, ‘Puffy, take care of my babies,'” he candidly reveals. “She actually said that to me before she died.”
Upon finding out about her death from pneumonia in November 2018, the star says he immediately “jumped into mommy mode.” The rapper explains, “I sent people in every direction to try to make sure the kids would not hear about it on social media or the news.”

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Kim’s words of wisdom and careful guidance may have prepared Diddy for the task of being a single dad, but he says that at first he “really didn’t know how we’d be doing” months down the line. But with the help of his exes Sarah Chapman and Misa Hylton-Brim, as well as friends and family, they are “doing really well.”

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Together, the pair shared their son Christian, 20, and 12-year-old twin daughters D’Lila Star and Jessie James. Diddy also helped to raise Kim’s son Quincy Brown, 27, from a previous relationship with singer/producer Al B. Sure.
All four of the children appear to be coping as good as one can after the loss of a parent, with Diddy adding that they are probably doing better than him. He says, “One day I asked them how are they being so strong. They said that, in a weird way, their mother had taught them how to deal with death… Now, ironically, they are teaching me how to deal with Kim’s passing.”